I am extremely dejected because my I.Q. was measured to be 137. I hoped to have 170 or greater! How...?

do I overcome my dejection? The numerical score was what I craved, as a sort of external recognition of the internal intelligence I believe myself to possess. My 150 verbal score did not help, even. I wish I were profound! I did not care about "social problems" resulting from higher intelligence, or even about "happiness," et cetera. All I really wanted was to ponder the nature of reason having a high intelligence! This was all that mattered!